Confessions of a Christian Girl: April Showers Bring May Flowers

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Now a days, there’s a saying “April showers bring May flowers”. It’s a reflection of what normally happens spiritually. In this season, we celebrate the life, death & resurrection of Christ. But before there was celebration there was mourning. In my life right now, I experiencing destiny pains. I’m asking God “Is there a way out? I can’t see this one. What’s the plan here? What’s going on? Is THIS your will? Well…God you are Father and you know what you’re doing”. I’m asking similar questions that Christ asked when he was about to endure the cross for you and I:

“My Father, if there is any way, get me out of this. But please, not what I want. You, what do you want?” Matthew 26:39

 How painful, to know the horror of what you’re about to go through before it comes. Such turmoil, such torture. Yet, He did it anyway. To be stripped, beaten and torn to shreds for a crime He didn’t even commit. Christ’s bravery breathes breathe into my body. If I can just follow his earlier example in verse 39 “Going a little ahead, he fell on his face, praying” no matter what lays ahead…I will come out on the other side.

I won’t lie to you, sorrowful tears run down my face. Not because I know what’s going to happen but because I’m uncertain. I can imagine the clouds were dark as He laid his head in between a bushel of thorns as he prayed, unbothered by the ants that crawled over his legs, the dirt that stained his garment, his mind constantly replaying the visions of what was going to happen in less than 48 hours, his sight clouded by tears of intercession, praying earnestly that his disciples would remember every miracle, teaching, encounter and push the Gospel forward, his voice blocked because of the mourning of His soul, yet He did it anyway. He pushed through.

On television, everything is so happy, there are bunnies hopping, spring sales, bright colors & with the hopes that Spring is well underway. But for Christ, all those years ago it was not so. I pray that in this season both physically and spiritually, just as Christ was able to push through the agony of the unfold of events that were SURE to take place before his ultimate glory, I pray that the Christ in you and I will help us endure. I didn’t plan for certain things that are taking place in my life right now, the agony is overwhelming. There are not enough words to express the inner turmoil. The one downside about believing so hard is that sometimes you get let down real hard. Don’t be surprised by bad news, set back or heighten warfare because you WILL win. Remember seed needs dirt, water and sunlight. It’s surroundings and season of darkness being pushed underground, will allow new life to spring forth.

“Since you have been raised to new life with Christ, set your sights on the realities of heaven, where Christ sits in the place of honor at God’s right hand.”-Colossians 3:1

Later Folks, XOXO

One thought on “Confessions of a Christian Girl: April Showers Bring May Flowers

  1. Not only does seed need dirt, it also needs fertiziler aka POOP!!! So when you see poop dropping, just understand it is the fertilizer needed to grow. 🙂

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