I took it upon myself to take a few minutes everyday to reflect on lessons that I’ve learned this year. There are 13 more days left in the year, so let’s start with day one shall we:

Day 1: I understand that I don’t understand

 There are certain things up until this very day I have yet to see the manifestation of. Not even a peek or a preview, trailer, commercial something. Sometimes as a believer you ask yourself what I call the “Normal 5”

-Is God mad at me?

-Maybe I didn’t pray enough

-Maybe I should’ve came to church more

-Maybe this all there is to life.

-I guess it wasn’t God’s will?

Come on, you know you’ve asked yourself one of these questions at LEAST once. You know the natural excuses that begin to swarm around in your head about the possible reasons about why things are the way they are. I myself have struggled with this. I like answers you know! I asked God to give me peace and you what I finally had to surrender and say: ” I understand that I don’t understand”(Thank you Archbishop!)  I don’t have all the answers. I don’t know how long I’m going to be on this earth, when or how I will die, I don’t know when or if my promotion at work will come, I don’t know the first moment a grey streak will sprout from my scalp because I AM NOT IN CONTROL OF MY OWN LIFE. When I was singing “Take my lifeeeeeeee and mold ittt….” apparently I didn’t get the memo that um, yes Jesus was taking me up on my offer. LOL!Personally, this is a HUGE lesson. We’re taught from very early in life to plan out every detail of your lives but we’re we never prepared for the unpredictable outcomes. Yes it can be painful. Yes it’ll make you want to lose your cool. But it also mature you if you don’t let it deter you. Read the book of Ecclesiastics, your perception on life will change. Sometimes you have to say “I understand that I don’t understand…until then, work it out Jesus”.