Early this morning. I stopped at the gas station, completely irritated with myself about not getting gas the last night. I was already 7 minutes behind schedule and was bracing myself for the unwelcomed traffic on the beloved 495. The clerk who I probably should know her name after years of doing the same dance of Im-late-don’t-want-to-use-my-card-lets-go, gave me a half smile at 6:45 in the morning and said “$38.98”. I scrambled through my wallet, determined not to give no two pennies more. I ended up just throwing down a white flag and what I thought was a crumpled dollar bill down at the same time. As I looked up, the clerk seemed to be confused. I frowned back and thought to myself “What, you don’t understand money?” (I think we can already guess that I didn’t pray this morning). As I followed the clerk’s eyes, I too now understood what she was looking at. A piece a paper I long ago forgot about. I was completely caught off guard of how this paper ended up in my pocket. I exchanged the piece of paper with a dollar bill and briskly walked to my car. But the image of those words were stuck in head…
2 Corinthians 3:17. On any other day, it would’ve just been a random scripture I wouldn’t have thought twice about. But today…the meaning behind the scripture made my heart skip a beat. Now, this isn’t called Confessions of a Christian Girl for no reason…so allow me to confess:
I don’t know about you but at times in my walk, where I’m not walking a fast, as hard or as focused as let’s say “other times”. Don’t get it twisted: Still walking but there are questions, concerns and faint inability to no longer see where you’re going but to strictly depend on what the Spirit of God is saying to you. When I feel as though there is a lot of “noise”, I pull away. It’s getting an important call in the midst of a crazy atmosphere. What do you do? You pull away to hear the person, on the other line better. In order to hear God better, I went on a quick hunt through the bible to not just read that verse but to read the entire chapter to ensure that I fully understood the context of verse 17.
Are we beginning to commend ourselves again? Or do we need, like some people, letters of recommendation to you or from you? You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everyone. You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone but on tablets of human hearts. Such confidence we have through Christ before God. Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant—not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life.
The Greater Glory of the New Covenant
Now if the ministry that brought death, which was engraved in letters on stone, came with glory, so that the Israelites could not look steadily at the face of Moses because of its glory, transitory though it was, will not the ministry of the Spirit be even more glorious? If the ministry that brought condemnation was glorious, how much more glorious is the ministry that brings righteousness! For what was glorious has no glory now in comparison with the surpassing glory. And if what was transitory came with glory, how much greater is the glory of that which lasts!
Therefore, since we have such a hope, we are very bold. We are not like Moses, who would put a veil over his face to prevent the Israelites from seeing the end of what was passing away. But their minds were made dull, for to this day the same veil remains when the old covenant is read. It has not been removed, because only in Christ is it taken away. Even to this day when Moses is read, a veil covers their hearts. But whenever anyone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.
-2 Corinthians 3
This scripture reminded me, that even though I walk, it is the word God that is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. I myself cannot light my own way or see my own way through. The word is the beam of light that helps make things make sense….even when they don’t. That in itself, reflects that Christ is the beam of hope through this crazy thing called “life”.
*Note-I did not proof read, this unedited, be nice 🙂 LOL