Are you going to go see it?
I say on Birthdays…LIVE IT UP! The first day of something new is the day you want to make a statement. Personally for me, I threw a bunch of items together and it happened to work. This season we’re still on the mixing of different materials and I happened to REALLY love that trend just because I’ve always been a creative free spirit. This outfit says “Who says Christian Girls can’t have fun?!”
$180 – nelly.com
$3,020 – net-a-porter.com
A few weeks ago, I attended a networking event, which was a gathering of women from all over the DC-Maryland-Virginia Area. For anyone who has attended an event as such, you understand that the first portion of the event is reserved for “making friends”. During the first 15 minutes, I felt a pair of eyes on me. You know, that feeling when you feel like “Ok, I’m being stalked?! Through the crowded sea of women I couldn’t identify where that feeling was coming from. In true Tasha form, I began to pray. Not out loud, clapping my hands, binding and loosing, shifting, removing and replacing but simply in language that is a private conversation between God and I. I felt a light tap on my shoulder and I turned around to be greeted by a hand in front my face. I smiled, hesitated, switch my cup to my left hand, returned the favor and gave a firm handshake that was meant to say “Yo, what’s up. You good, you come in peace?” The lady immediately read my name tag, asked for a business card and began the integration of who I was, what did I do for living, how long I’ve being doing etc. Just when I was about to excuse myself, tell her how great it was to meet her, keep in touch, the standard “It’s time for me to move on” She abruptly said “You don’t belong here”…”Huh?”. What do you say that? I gave her a moment to collect her thoughts because she was going to have to do better than that. I think the raise of my eyebrow, prompted her to go on. “You just don’t seem to fit in…not in a bad way. I don’t know…it’s just a thought anyway”. Yes, that was my queue to chuck the deuces because “NO, she didn’t”. On the drive home, I pondered over the random lady’s comment. But she was right. I didn’t belong here. Truth be told, I’ve never handle rejection very well but I was determined to take a negative and turn it into a positive. In mind, I went men and woman in the bible who were in places they just simply didn’t belong. Moses, who had a temper issue (I can totally relate) sure did not fit in with his adopted royal Egyptian family, was promptly called out and killed a man because of it! I’m sure Ms. Esther, during her preparation phase, didn’t fit with the other hopeful contestants. I’m sure Paul, who was once a murder of the Jews didn’t fit in with his new acquired religious-aint-never-done-nothing-wrong-but-serve-the-Lord-friends. I get it. I truly did. Maybe this God’s way of saying to me “Press onward and upward”. I always tell myself, I’m not where I’m supposed to be but thank God, I’m not where I use to be. Now, the decision is mine to make: Stay in this place, or move to the place where I’m supposed to be? I now understood what the woman with the Alabaster box felt when she walked into that room of well-groomed and polished religious folk. They were right, she didn’t belong there. I’m going to follow her cue, close my eyes, kneel at His feet and pour my life’s worth at his feet. I’m sure everyone was like “Uhhh! Gross! She’s ho! Jesus don’t you know?!” But guess what happened in the life of that woman? Her name has been recorded in the volume of the books not because she did anything great but because found where she belonged, at his feet, in the midst of a sea of people.
Over the weekend, I will be attending a Pastors Ordination Ceremony. Not my first and probably not my last. I got the thinking, is there a “rule” of what and not wear. IDK! But I did ask myself “ If I was an attendee at Prince William & Kate’s wedding *tapping chin* what would I wear?!” My friend, this would be it. You are a witness to a man or woman of God’s elevation! What an exciting time. You are part of the Royal Priesthood and this is a GREAT time to look the part.
Old school Mali Music.. My favorite part: “…Don’t look to the left, nor to the right, just walk to the light….When you look down they’ll be no ground you’ll be standing on water”
It’s terrible when you’re busy using up what’s SUPPOSE to be your prayer and devotion time to run off at the mouth. I’ve been talking (more like complaining) to God about a particular area in my life and you know what He did? Didn’t say a word. Of course, naturally it sent me into a dramatic rampage and a complete boycott of church services….YES, moi. Super-duper-You-ain’t-going-to-church-today-that’s-triflin-Tasha. Please don’t know body call-text-facebook-skype me unless you want a piece of this. I just could NOT understand why Jesus was not fixing this until I heard a quite small voice at 6:00am this morning “You asked for this”. Dead silence (that’s a first for me). I had to really think? Is this current situation I’m in because I asked for this?! Well I’ll be. I DID ask for this!!! I was astonished by God’s four letter response. He had to bring it back to my memory that I asked for this door. I asked for this opportunity. I asked for certain things be rearranged and guess what He did? He did it….for me. I pulled a Luke 18(the parable of the crazy lady and the judge, knocking on his door in the middle of the night like she was crazy-read it) LORD, have mercy! To be honest, when I walked through the door; I was uncertain. It didn’t make sense, what does THIS *pointing all around* have to do with my destiny? For those who know my well, I HATE wasting time. Time is one thing you can NEVER, ever, EVER get back. Once it’s gone, it’s gone. I hate for people to say “I’ll make up the time”…uhh, you can’t replace it or get it back. It’s gone, bye boo. I was upset because I felt as though I wasted my time. I wasted a portion of my delightful 20’s that I can’t get back. You know what I’ve learned from this? Two things:
- God might show you the end of the thing but not the process. Find out the reason for your existence. Your assignment and how you should go about while on your on this earth. I don’t care how long it takes. It will save you a whole a lot of time & trouble!
- We ask for things and don’t know what we’re asking for. Wrong passions can lead to wrong purpose. If we have the wrong appetites, we will ask for the WRONG things.
Needless to say: God pulled a checkmate. The move was so brisk, so fast, I didn’t see it coming. Now, I have a bunch of fallen pieces across the board.
Today, I ask for forgiveness. Jesus, I did NOT know what I was thinking asking for this?! But I know when Christ died for me…He saw this error. He knew I would make a mistake. He knew I would end up in some foolishness, but He died for my anyways. I ask for grace to finish out this current assignment and mercy. It’s only mercy that will bring me back to the place where I belong. Let mercy step in! Not because I deserve it because I don’t want what I do to embarrass God.
A lesson to learn before this year ends.